Effective Meetings

I was told in my performance review meeting today that I am a strong leader and chair very effective meetings even when I am just substituting for others. I am definitely glad to hear that, but actually, I don't like meetings at all. Despite meetings being useful as a way to communicate to a large group of people and all, I feel meeting is just me sharing and gathering information for a large group of people which often time I am already aware of it through other means. So the reward for me is probably the smallest among the team, and on top of that, I am stuck with providing the long meeting minutes which everyone likes.

This is the time when I would rather be told I need to improve on my skills.

Another feedback is of course 1) to learn to delegate and 2) to learn to balance work and life. Yah, sure. Delegate takes a lot of trust and time and I could start balancing my work and life if I am not involved in everything!

The company's goal for me this coming year is to create 10 more "Me". I can't believe I am responsible to create 10 more "Me" in the company. Aren't we supposed to be all unique? If you don't have the drive, how am I supposed to create drive (and motivation) in you? My God! I think my company is asking the impossible... I have to lead projects and teams, drive changes, execute work and teach others, give technical presentations, attend training, come up with new ways to do things more effectively (do more with less), introduce new tools, influence design and interface with customers. What is it that I don't already do? And my rating this year is not even among the top 10%. What the?

Maybe it's a good time for me to just take my effective meeting skills somewhere else. Shoot.